"I wanna be mean, and throw mud pies..."

...Not really but it sure would be fun to see the reaction of the one getting mashed in the face by it. Even funner than that is being the bad girl. I really am not a bad girl, I just have the tendency from time to time to want to be evil and out right atrocious. I would love the freedom of jumping in a puddle without rain boots and spoiling my dress. And yes I would truly get a thrill out of throwing water filled balloons out of a high-rise and splashing every oblivious creature walking down below, heck, for the fun of it I would love to go to the movie theaters and change my seat from time to time just so that I can step on everybody's feet. Soon as I've finally decided to settle in I would then cheer for the bad guy who in his own sense is the star. He is the reason that we came out right? You see this bad girl right here (yea, me) I'm kind of a big deal and just like every bad girl I'm looking for my bad guy, my tall dark and handsome rude boy with boyish good looks chocolate something. I want him, so verily crave his attention and need him not to validate but to compliment my yin with his yang. Not only is the bad guy flat out arousing but best of all him, bad guy like me, bad girl has the potential to get better....

Beginnings Of a Beautiful Friendship

Im awake...Just got through working on something colossal....I mean BIG! In any case, im through and cant bring myself to turn in to my warm bed. Instead I sit on this hard, cold floor...Grow with me build with me...this may infact be the busiest year of my life...literally. Im confident because hard work pays off....little about myself. I am a mother, a student, daughter, and creator. I am also all the goods that epitomize the makings of a complex gemini, a connoisseur of art and all facets of self expression, Oh and now I can pen blogger under my belt as well ...Naturally I will share my thoughts, cares, and my beliefs. They may not be right but they are mine and make perfect sense to me and are subject to change because I am constantly evolving and learning...sometimes I learn things twice...Feel free to share with me and interact with me. I am always open for suggestion.

I bid adieu and bless you with the poem that inspired the blogname....

Nikki Giovanni

Ego Tripping (there may be a reason why)

I was born in the congo
I walked to the fertile crescent and built
the sphinx
I designed a pyramid so tough that a star
that only glows every one hundred years falls
into the center giving divine perfect light
I am bad

I sat on the throne
drinking nectar with allah
I got hot and sent an ice age to europe
to cool my thirst
My oldest daughter is nefertiti
the tears from my birth pains
created the nile
I am a beautiful woman

I gazed on the forest and burned
out the sahara desert
with a packet of goat's meat
and a change of clothes
I crossed it in two hours
I am a gazelle so swift
so swift you can't catch me

For a birthday present when he was three
I gave my son hannibal an elephant
He gave me rome for mother's day
My strength flows ever on

My son noah built new/ark and
I stood proudly at the helm
as we sailed on a soft summer day
I turned myself into myself and was
jesus
men intone my loving name
All praises All praises
I am the one who would save

I sowed diamonds in my back yard
My bowels deliver uranium
the filings from my fingernails are
semi-precious jewels
On a trip north
I caught a cold and blew
My nose giving oil to the arab world
I am so hip even my errors are correct
I sailed west to reach east and had to round off
the earth as I went
The hair from my head thinned and gold was laid
across three continents

I am so perfect so divine so ethereal so surreal
I cannot be comprehended except by my permission

I mean...I...can fly
like a bird in the sky..,